A Two-Week Vacation Can't Hurt Anyone
I am taking two weeks completely off with zero running. It’s the only right thing to do right now. Taking baby running steps is only taking me back a few more and getting me nowhere. Boston is for the most part not happening unless miraculously something happens and changes in the other direction.
Coach and I discussed this and decided to put it out of my mind and not attempt to make it up (right away) by running a different so soon. Step one is to get better and the next step is setting shorter-termed goals with shorter distances.
Boston is not completely out of my mind though and I didn’t tell my coach this. Boston is a dream we all have as marathoners. I realized that I will hate every moment running Boston if I am not going to run it fast. Maybe you don’t agree but I will never forget the moment during LA when I stopped and how I felt as the slower pace groups passed me. I wasn’t tired at all – I was trapped in this injured body and couldn’t do anything to change that. Heartbreaking. I can’t imagine running Boston just to finish and still crack a smile and enjoy the amazing experience of being there. Everyone is telling me how positive I am – I don’t feel that way all the time. I have these up and down bouts of emotion that are driving me crazy. Like super crazy. I will run Boston if I think it is safe and I am not injured…it is the only way. So if I do, I do, and if I don’t then I don’t. It is not the end of the world (although it feels like it in some weird way). I can always cancel my hotel, get a credit for my Virgin Airlines flight, sell my Redsox tix and sell or trade all the Boston gear that I already bought if necessary. That last part is funny and I will never buy race branded gear before I get to that starting line! So if you are running Boston and I don’t, I have some nice Boston gear in a size small that I am willing to barter with. J
Anyway, for now get better. Then train for 5ks and 10ks. Get some PRs and then do some half marys. My next marathon will be in November. Well, I hope that I will be able to run a marathon in November. I am starting to learn that with marathons whether training for them or during the races themselves, are so unpredictable – anything can happen.
Sometimes I actually do think a little clearly during this whole fiasco and I do think that increasing those shorter distances will only improve my marathon time and maybe that is what I should have done first. Don’t know but I am up for it. Don’t tell me I told you so. I am constantly beating myself up as it is trying to figure out what happened.
Trace- you inspire me in so many ways. You have the heart of a champion and eventually you will acquire the patience and wisdom of Job, through adversity and knowledge of your human limits. Only by hitting barriers can we find our boundaries. Godspeed, my friend.
March 30, 2011 at 8:24 pm
Thanks Mike – really appreciate it. I can’t wait to look back at this and laugh. For now, I have to run vicariously through you so get out there!
April 11, 2011 at 5:39 pm
Ah que caray!! A lot of things on your mind. You should go to the gym and do some work out there instead of running on the street in order to avoid the impact on your body. The worse is do nothing. Come on!! try to run in the swimming pool, do steps, etc, etc. there are several ways to keep you shape without run in the streets.
March 31, 2011 at 9:19 am
I am so sorry. I know how hard you worked to make a comeback after you fractured your foot.
This second injury just seems so unfair.
I will be praying that you heal quickly so that you can get back to doing what you love to do.
You have a great attitude and a great heart. Boston will be yours (the way you want it) some day. Just keep those positive thoughts flowing!
Get well soon! Hugs from NM!
Geri Lynn S. from DM
April 5, 2011 at 1:51 pm
Awe! Sorry to hear. That really sucks. Um.. maybe you can take your vacation to Boston and check out the race. It’s going to be awesome this year. I’d go just to watch if I could. It might be inspirational to watch Kara Goucher and Ryan Hall cross the finish line.. maybe even win. Hope you fell better. I get to feeling super crazy too when I can’t make my goals, but you are just awesome. Take care.
April 11, 2011 at 1:57 pm
You are right about Kara and Ryan! I am going to try to make the best of it and not look back. Thanks for your sweet message!
April 11, 2011 at 5:38 pm